August 10th,2011

so the story goes on, i repeat 1 subject and only come to school for this one subject in 1 FUCKING YEAR!! i want to work or something to fill up the empty spaces, huhu, and hell yeah, its been 1 week that i havent told my parents that i repeat for 1 year. huhhu, first time repeating feel like doing suicide, huhu, then unexpectedly i learned to just move on and aim higher than anyone for 2nd year. huhu, but that took me like 1 week of crying. im tired of crying already, nothing changes when i onky cry cry cry, and thinking about it, stop crying, try harder for the future, u know u can do better, learn friom mistake and dont repeat it. huhu, and last nite was so saddening when my sayang says that ots weird that i didnt go crazy knowing that i repeat and he even accuse me having this spirit bcz of some guy givinng me advise or something, hell yeah it hurts, its really hard for me to move on, but it seems to him its wrong to move on . huhu, but thank god he didnt talk abt it again after i explain it and just straight apologising to me, but that really swept my mood away. huhu, life has been really hard to me, reaallly HARD!:( but ive to keep going stronger no matter what, its the rocky road that im going and i hope soon enough the roads is going on smooth. and oh yeah, tdi i was late for class cz i was oversleep in the library, thank got the tutor didt go angry eventho he didnt puasa as he's not muslim. and now im at library doing nothing but updating my blog. ive done my maths and everything that i got nothing else to do but sleep. k, tataaa.

Heelllo life.

hai, nama ku zapirah..kau tau apa???? stress ku ni na maths ku fail ahhh, repeat 1 year g gtu for maths jaaa....nasib proceed 2nd year. and makin ku streessss nada elaun aaaahhh,.. celaka banar, tapiii kan,i manage to hide the notificatioon letter bgi yg rfepeat subject, atu yaaa 3 hari beturut2 wah ku uri kn surat ah, mana g sangup turun kebawah pat peti surat pagi2..budu bnaaa.. p atlast i can take that letter with the help of habib during our lunch time i recieve msg from kaka psl surat p kunci peti surat aku tapuk. hahahaha,evilgenuisss kali,p buduh maths.huhu, and im planning kn nyusahkan habib for 6 months sja psl byr laptop, bt i'll pay him back as soon as my allowance out which will be around 3 thousand+, i know im such a burden, but having a debt to him will make me more to my study,sal mun aku fail any subject elaun na akan keluar,.. but i confirm rasa aku pass semua, amin!! THO IM WEAK AT PROGRAMMING but i'll try my best to cheat. hahahhaha.. pyh li ahh programming,pelacur bh. hahaand msa ani nunggu sayang habis kursus 6 bulan, BATAH BH TU!! PYH BH KN JMPA TGHARI. BNCI KU:( MANA G ADA IBLIS AZRY NAMANYA DLM CLASS ATU..haha,sakliyaeh kna ckpi leh ku,,pakop lah,. anyway, idk why i feel unsecure whenever ada nama bini2 kn kirimslam arah habib, mcm ntah ihh..i'll just pray that he'll only sstick to me and not falling for anyone elese.. hopefully.. cz i reallly2 love him sooo much,soo much than i dnt expect i can ,huhu. he didnt even know how much i love him. its just unpredictable. but im scared that in the end i'll be as hurt as ever,. that's just the consequence for loving someone soo deep. but no. that will not happen,. ryt? amin,na akan terjadi semoga kami dapat bersama hingga ke akhir hayat dgn kebahagiaan. amin. that is all for now. salam manis dari saye, hahahaha.pak u lah. k. Love you always Habib bin wahid.

baru th teupdate.

anyways,,,theres just soo many things that this blog missed out. happiness or sadness, but happiness overcome the sadness.,thankfully.. and oh, its 2nd term holiday people. yet,i rarely met him:( i know, life is soooo unfair. these are the pictures for somme of this blog missed.
hmmm. idk waht to say anymore, and oh, theres some unresolve problem in me., i hate it:(
no matter what, i'll always love u habib, always:)

bowling

hey hellooo,, im back..

yesterdayh him. til these lil brat wen on booo'ing me.. bunuh cha kalih kanak2 aaa.. ahaha,sasaK KU,anak urg putih ani th lagiii..liat nya aku, its your turn, bahai sulnyaaaa..haha,na ku mau main taus, aku suh sayang saja, haha.. then ea manang ani waa.. first time g tu ea main. kaling banarrr, haha.. then in the afternoon,aku test programming language, damn it was hard yang coding aa.. bangkai, haha.. the coding number 2 ani aku tejawab waaa,, p na cukup masa.. bahuuutaaa.. amin ja pass lahh.. huhu..
tadi meet him, and then main game. hehe. love u sooo much sayang. love u always:)

ani urg kambang..haha..but i love him!

jaringan dari md habib bin wahid ..capek deh. hahaha

guligata

hmmmm..kemarin2 again kna serang penyakit known as guligata..gilaaaaa...gatal berabis waaaa,,bnyk biji2 g tuuu..even arah muka:s gali kuuuuu okay muka ku sendiri..huh.p aku na brani garu ara muka sal muka sensitive skin and soo aku garu kaki ku apa, merah2 bintik2 kaki ku..huhu..then kemarin siuk,BBQ sama czn ku,,smpai 12 lalu th lagi tuuu.. kami liat ceta antu dluar rumh pakai projector.. mlm jumaat waa tu bnyk hantu on duty,kami leat khurafat.. then teriak2 g tu dluar aaa..haha.. and oh, i got family problem, huhu,,i hate problem:s huhu.. btw urg atu adawaaa masa tu katanya karang th ku mengupdate blog sal ea main game dulu, then nada jua ada2 nyaaa.. angin th bnr. juburan, kaling kelanjian bnr ea atuuuu

19.03.2011

today im off with my english assignment with my group huwaida, nadi and zerah.. and pas ani jumpa habib kali MUN sampat..ehee.. i want to go kampong air waaa..aha. love u soo much love kuu..

at Coffe bean bandar;)

life has been..

soooooo sick. first i was having toothache which make me sleepless over night for about 3 days..niluuuu kaliah gigi ku.. buduuu wwaaaa...rasa kn mati kuuuu, then aku slalu ngusut arah boyfriend ku saying niluuuuuuuuu balik2, annoying? yes. hahaha.. sorry syg, but thanks that you are always there for me. hehe.. sorry aaa me ANI nyusahkan,,luan penyakitan, haha, dri awal relation tani dh me sakit sjaa..dulu g th yaaa,me betahan ara hospital,haha, na u sedih ada gf yg bnyk sakit mcm me? naleh u melayan tu aaa.tapi me pun na mau sakit waaa,me slalu pikir me ani kuat lah apalah, tapi kenyataan nya sebaliknya, huhu, i wish i was born with more healthy body and strong immune system. sorry aa sayang me slalu buat u risau, sorry sooo much, and then baru2 ani aku damam batuk ampus g, also make me sleepless last night, huhu, stress ku hidup ku aa:( aaa, ada g aku slalu text boyfriend ku, budu aa? i just cant stop my self from contacting him,yet im worried he'll be annoyed from me. huhu, sayang, dnt give up on me aa, i nvr want to make u worried or trying to be  annoying, huhu, love u sooo much, no matter what will happen, i'll always love you.

ni naaa gigi ku kana cabut masa ara dentist,aku sma love ku, waaa..kajar2 beta kana inject apa aa..thanks love you give me courage to do it:)

my lil book, see there lying  on the floor, its my lil brother who sleep in my room and get me infected with fever and cough. damn him

there,there..my cute lil book that i bought, originally its white but aku lapis..haha.lawaa kan? and oh, i havent write anything in it, its just sooo cute.