August 10th,2011

so the story goes on, i repeat 1 subject and only come to school for this one subject in 1 FUCKING YEAR!! i want to work or something to fill up the empty spaces, huhu, and hell yeah, its been 1 week that i havent told my parents that i repeat for 1 year. huhhu, first time repeating feel like doing suicide, huhu, then unexpectedly i learned to just move on and aim higher than anyone for 2nd year. huhu, but that took me like 1 week of crying. im tired of crying already, nothing changes when i onky cry cry cry, and thinking about it, stop crying, try harder for the future, u know u can do better, learn friom mistake and dont repeat it. huhu, and last nite was so saddening when my sayang says that ots weird that i didnt go crazy knowing that i repeat and he even accuse me having this spirit bcz of some guy givinng me advise or something, hell yeah it hurts, its really hard for me to move on, but it seems to him its wrong to move on . huhu, but thank god he didnt talk abt it again after i explain it and just straight apologising to me, but that really swept my mood away. huhu, life has been really hard to me, reaallly HARD!:( but ive to keep going stronger no matter what, its the rocky road that im going and i hope soon enough the roads is going on smooth. and oh yeah, tdi i was late for class cz i was oversleep in the library, thank got the tutor didt go angry eventho he didnt puasa as he's not muslim. and now im at library doing nothing but updating my blog. ive done my maths and everything that i got nothing else to do but sleep. k, tataaa.